This marks the end of the 4th day in my quest to avoid the mirror for a month. I must say that it has been a little strange, especially for my morning routine. I’m finding it easier to avoid the mirror than I thought and have only been tempted to look out of habit rather than need.
I must say that my goal for this week is to let go of the fat. By that, I mean that I want to let go of the mental picture of a chubby body so that next week I can focus on a thinner image. I feel the need to let go of the chub that I have long focused on so I can move on from it. Holding onto that image all day every day and letting those feelings sink in can’t be good for my outlook.
I do a morning gratitude list where I name out 10 things I’m grateful for. Each item I take a moment to think about and really feel happy for. My body/metabolism/health is always listed and yet losing weight is the one thing I haven’t benefitted from being positive about. The more I think about it, the more I feel it’s because I regularly contradict those feelings by replacing them with the feelings of disappointment, frustration, and embarrassment over being chubby. What you think about, you bring about and I definitely could bring about more body positive thinking.
So far this week, I’ve purposely worn clothing that I’m comfortable in. I probably also wear them because I know what they look like and that I’m OK with that image I remember. However, I have been trying to branch out and reconnect with clothing I brush aside due to looks. For example, I have one shirt that is salmon colored and sort of lacy so it’s quite open and breezy. I never wear it because I feel, due to its fabric nature, it poofs out and leaves me looking especially chub. I love the way it feels because it’s so open and smooth against my skin. Hopefully soon I’ll be able to wear it for those reasons. I mean if there ever was a time, it would be now when I’m not looking right? 🙂
Queen Meranda 